It took me a good while to remember who you actually are. Funny thing is, you claimed that you knew me on a personal level and based on that you came up with a blunt judgement that I am not an optimist and that well too, I suck. That fences us behind two options:-
1) Either I am an ungrateful person who does not remember the people she used to know on a personal level. Which I know very well that I am not. I am a people’s person. And the level of self-actualization that I’m at tells me so. So no, it’s not that.
2) You believe that you knew me, but actually you did not know me at all. Which happens sometimes, you think you’re friends with someone while that someone does not know that you exist in their inner circle of acquaintances to begin with. But it’s okay. It happens. So give me the floor to correct you.
It truly bothers me, how you do not know anything about my life, what I’ve been through, what I’m doing, my take on things and you still made a very insulting personal judgement. It doesn’t bother me that it’s coming from a stranger as much as it bothers me that it’s not true. If I would state one weakness about myself; that would be blind optimism. And it is a weakness because sometimes things just don’t happen no matter how much you hope, work or wait for them to do. I hope, I work and I wait. Some call it faith. Some call it idiocy. By the end of the day, it’s the resultant of being blindly optimistic, of not weighing the possibilities because I block out any thoughts of a negative outcome. Unless you have a different definition of optimism, I do not know what you build your judgement on.
Second thing- I suck? Really? How long have you known me. I remember we remotely worked under the same roof for a couple of months and that was it. I would like to know what drove you to creating such an assumption that I would truly like to alter or completely remove. You know that famous quote that says that unless you’ve been in someone shoes, don’t judge them. Google it.
Well, now coming to the nice parts which I genuinely thank you for:-
1) You said that I am horrifically talented and that I have inspired you in many ways. Wow, I am humbled. Really. Thank you so much for the nice words. This means a lot to me. I like feedback that comes from people I do not know the most, because usually it is sincere.
2) You said that you respect me on a writers’ scale. Thank you for choosing the correct word to define me- a writer! See it’s that simple, since this is ALL that you conclude from my blog. I am a writer. This is how far you know me. And this is how far I’ll let you define me.
Funny thing is, when I remembered you, I remembered you well. Unlike you, given I haven’t seen you in more than 4 years and you still remember why I suck. That’s a record I would like to end.
And for your information, being dramatic and optimistic can go perfectly well together.
Have a very good day, dear stranger!