You call and she doesn’t answer. You wait by the phone in case she calls back. It’s been hours since you called and you check your phone every 5 minutes. Her name still won’t flash up. You convince yourself that she might have not seen your missed call and you call again. This time she answers and your smile lights up the entire room because you’ve finally heard her voice. While calling her doesn’t really make it better. It only puts you back into the cycle of heartbreak.
You will like to think that she’s playing hard to get while in fact she couldn’t care less, and if she does, it’s only about how much you’re wasting yourself over her. She doesn’t need your love because she’s unable to reciprocate it. She only feels sorry for you.
Most of the pain you’re feeling right now is a result of fear. Yes, fear. You got so attached to her. You don’t know what will happen if you simply try to walk away. Fear of things being different than how you liked them, fear of never finding love again, fear of being alone, fear of having to fill your time differently. We’re afraid of the unknown; classice human nature.
Some days you’ll feel like it’s not worth it; she’s just another girl and you can land a way better one. But you’ll still hate having to miss her, hate having to deal with everything you love about her.
You’ll hold onto the memories you created inside your head because they won’t change, while she will. She already does change by the minute.
but you don’t have to hold onto anything, or do you?